That girl

I am now “that girl” the one that doesn’t fit in with anyone, the chick that stay home because she didn’t get the invite to the party, everyone looks at me like I’m some weird freak but him. I know I’m crazy for saying it but he’s different with me.
I asked him why he wanted to hang out with me today and he said “you’re that girl, you’re not like all the other girls and I want to get to know you better” sooo I’m fucked lol I like him and that’s not a good thing for me right now…ugh guys..

Just Maybe

I couldn’t sleep tonight, and my mind was going crazy. to day was a good/weird day.

A guy who I hateded was aking me to give him a second chance at being my friend. the first time we met I wanted to hurt him, he was “that guy” the “to cool to hang with you” guy, and I disliked him. He said whatever to whoever, whenever he flet like it, drinking and driving, somking and fighting with his “girl” he was the total Jerk.

I tried being nice to him but it just didn’t seem to work, so I said forget him and moved on with my life.

but now he is standing here asking me for one more chance, to prove that he isn’t like all the other guy’s, that he really does have a heart. that he’s not the jerk everyone in this town says he is.

A part of me want’s to think maybe he isn’t what they all say he is, though I did see it for myself how he can be.

Do I give him a second chance?

he was so nice and sweet when we talked outside of my work tonight, talked about a little of everything, he even asked how my Grandmother and Aunt were doing.

But, I keep telling myself “hanging out with friend’s is not why I’m here, I am here to take care of my Grandmother and my Aunt and work, that is it!” so I don’t know what to do now, and he know’s why I’m here. maybe he’s just messing with me? maybe he’s trying to be nice to me to tear me down, or Mybe, just maybe he is that sweet guy I see in him….

Sunday,

It’s sunday and I’ve been up all night, I don’t know why but it seems like every saturday I stay up all night and doing what, I don’t even know! Hmm but today is going to be a good day, I have a lot of thing’s I wan’t to do. But first thing first, Church! 9:45am- 12:30…esh lol

~Second Chance~

So I’m sitting here at 2:34am and I can’t help but think about the past 8 day’s. Only 8 day’s into 2012 and all the freaking drama! Sometime’s I feel like I will go crazy, but then I remember that there’s a new day on the way, where if I really want to I can change and fix the thing’s that went wrong today, I have a second chance. you have a second chance….so let’s take it!

Ronnie C.